Selfish Grief

But that's part of the problem, isn't it? That you can be devastated by a person's death. A person could die, of cancer, or by choice, and you're devastated about it. Your own life comes to a halt. You can't do the basic things you thought you'd be able to do when you thought about today yesterday, because today is different. Today is different because that person died. But that takes you to another part of the problem, which is that the sun is shining and the world is turning and you want to be thankful for the life you still have. You want to reaffirm your devotion to your life. But you can't. You can't bring yourself to appreciate the life you still have. And that mourning gets wrapped up in the fact of the mourning of this person who died, this person who you're going to miss.